Penname: genderqueer89 [Contact] Real name:
Member Since: 02/12/11
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Bio:
guys!

I wanted to tell you a little about me and why I seem a little secretive when it comes to myself in some ways.

Iím male, gay, 21 years old, has a relationship with a fantastic man and love to write.

Iíve pretty low self-esteem when it comes to myself in general, I donít see the bright sides of myself as clear as everyone else does, I hide away pretty much at home and just do my thing there, Iíve something called Asperger Syndrome (itís low autistic symptoms) - not that it shows in my behaviors anymore - but I still have the low self-esteem that often comes with it.

And to the main thing, I use my boyfriendís email here, because Iíve gotten attacked before and itís just a way for me to protect myself and my identity. Not that I doesnít trust you guys, because I do, itís just.. Yeah, itís just I need to keep myself hidden in case the person from last time shows up again.

I shouldnít have to tell you this, but for one thing, I want to, for the other, Iíve gotten a few mails already that says Iím too secretive in here and Iím sorry if thatís what you think but I canít do anything about it because itís for my own safety and for my own survival Iíve to do this.

Of course, whenever I feel like I trust a person enough, I talk more and more about myself, try to give hints of who I am even if itís hard and whenever Iím ready, Iíd give my own email. Deal? Deal. This is just the way I am and I hope Iíve convinced you that Iím not some lunatic, because Iím not, I promise. ;)
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Series
Summary: Sam's a lot different from other kids, he doesn't talk, he doesn't do eye contact, he hates being touched if he's not prepared and he has a disability called autism. He fights it, tries to stuggle out of his shell and he's able to once everyone accept him for who he is and comes to terms that his disability is not the only thing he is.
Categories: Slash Characters: Dean, Sam, John, OMC, OFC, Cassie, Bobby, Ellen
Genres: Alternate Universe, Angst, Established Relationship, First Time, Hurt/Comfort, Pre-Series, Pre-Slash Warnings: Dean/Female character, Graphic Violence, Read At Your Own Risk
Challenges: None
Open: No
Stories
Amo te, tata by genderqueer89 Rated: NC-17 [Reviews - 3]
Summary: I were never really yours and you never uttered the words for all it was worth. Both of us knew the truth but right at the moment, as I sit in the woods and smell the air of early morning and burnt flesh and ash, I think I shouldíve told you before this happened.
Categories: Gen Characters: John, Sam
Genres: Angst Warnings: Character Death
Challenges: None
Series: None
Chapters: 1 Completed: Yes Word count: 544
Published: 10/01/11 Updated: 10/01/11
Summary: Dean broke eye contact to look down at Sam, smiling of what he saw there, complete trust, love and hotness. He was shining by every emotion he felt at the moment and there was also a little hint of fear shining through the rest and Dean hated their father for making Sam scared like this.
Categories: Slash Characters: Dean, John, Sam
Genres: Established Relationship, Hurt/Comfort Warnings: Underage Sex
Challenges: None
Series: None
Chapters: 1 Completed: Yes Word count: 1340
Published: 08/02/11 Updated: 08/02/11
Summary: It all starts when Sam's six years old and Dean doesn't understand until one night when he finally does and it's a cry for love, for understanding and for help.

Nothing too graphic, no sex.
Categories: Slash Characters: Dean, Sam
Genres: Alternate Universe, Angst, First Time, Hurt/Comfort, Pre-Slash Warnings: Child Abuse, Non-Con/Rape, Parental Incest, Read At Your Own Risk, Underage Sex
Challenges: None
Series: None
Chapters: 1 Completed: Yes Word count: 2708
Published: 10/23/11 Updated: 10/23/11
Just be honest by genderqueer89 Rated: NC-17 [Reviews - 6]
Summary: Sam hasn't been talking about the things that's bothering him. Dean notices, but can't do anything.. Until the day he gets a little help from God, to get the most stubborn people to open up to him.
Categories: Slash Characters: Dean, Sam
Genres: Angst, First Time, Pre-Slash Warnings: None
Challenges: None
Series: None
Chapters: 4 Completed: Yes Word count: 8918
Published: 02/21/11 Updated: 03/02/11
Lost soul mates by genderqueer89 Rated: NC-17 [Reviews - 4]
Summary: I'm sick of feeling like this, maybe I should take the risk to lose the only one I have? Sam's POV
Categories: Slash Characters: Dean, Sam
Genres: First Time, Pre-Slash Warnings: Underage Sex
Challenges: None
Series: None
Chapters: 1 Completed: Yes Word count: 886
Published: 02/12/11 Updated: 02/12/11
Summary: Sam has been bitching for a week and Deanís getting tired of it, he gets help to figure out what it is that bugs his brother and gets to learn that something much darker than heíd ever wanted to know has happened and itís in his hands to put the pieces back together again. Please donít be takeback about the warnings, itís nothing graphic.
Categories: Slash Characters: Bobby, Dean, Sam
Genres: Angst, First Time, Hurt/Comfort Warnings: Child Abuse, Non-Con/Rape, Read At Your Own Risk, Sam/Male character, Underage Sex
Challenges: None
Series: None
Chapters: 1 Completed: Yes Word count: 6671
Published: 08/28/11 Updated: 08/28/11
Summary: Season 7 of canon brought this poem into my head. It's dark, it's Sam and I hope you'll like it!
Categories: Gen Characters: Sam
Genres: Angst Warnings: Read At Your Own Risk
Challenges: None
Series: None
Chapters: 1 Completed: No Word count: 112
Published: 11/03/11 Updated: 11/03/11
Summary: Have you ever wondered which hurts the most: Saying something and wishing you had not, or saying nothing and wish you had?
-Unknown

Categories: Slash Characters: Bobby, Cassie, Dean, OMC, Sam
Genres: Alternate Universe, Angst, First Time, Hurt/Comfort Warnings: Dean/Female character, Read At Your Own Risk, Sam/Male character
Challenges: None
Series: None
Chapters: 2 Completed: Yes Word count: 21447
Published: 09/11/11 Updated: 09/11/11
Runaway love by genderqueer89 Rated: NC-17 [Reviews - 15]
Summary: Sequel to Blue balls and John knows. Dean and Sam stop hunting as Sam start Stanford, things go smooth and theyíre living together happily until one night when Sam gets a call, a call that would change their life forever. Can the boys work through the broken promises or is this the end of them?















Runaway love
Categories: Slash Characters: Bobby, Dean, John, Other, Sam
Genres: Alternate Universe, Angst, Established Relationship Warnings: BDSM, Graphic Torture, Kink, Read At Your Own Risk
Challenges: None
Series: None
Chapters: 13 Completed: No Word count: 48172
Published: 08/08/11 Updated: 05/01/12
Summary: Dean loves his little brother and thereís nothing that can change that.


Categories: Gen Characters: Dean, Sam
Genres: Angst, Hurt/Comfort, Pre-Slash Warnings: Graphic Violence, Read At Your Own Risk
Challenges: None
Series: Don't give up on me
Chapters: 2 Completed: No Word count: 4570
Published: 10/24/11 Updated: 11/01/11
Summary: I donít know what this is about, but thereís nothing in this world that can ever make me hate you. Youíre my youngest son Sam, and I love you so much it pains me seeing you like this.
Categories: Gen Characters: John, Sam
Genres: Angst, Drama, Hurt/Comfort Warnings: None
Challenges: None
Series: None
Chapters: 1 Completed: Yes Word count: 1786
Published: 11/22/11 Updated: 11/22/11
Summary: Yeah, not a story this time, just a letter to explain to you who I am and why I've an extrem need for you to give me both positive and negative critic on my stories. So I write this so you'll get an insight of who I am and that I might after this see myself as one in the gang.
Categories: Gen Characters: None
Genres: None Warnings: None
Challenges: None
Series: None
Chapters: 1 Completed: Yes Word count: 463
Published: 10/15/11 Updated: 10/15/11